“I must learn to love the fool in me: the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many
chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt,
promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries.”
- Theodore Isaac Rubin
I’ve always been on the fence with Estelle.. She obviously has talent, but I never really thought her music (or her for that matter) really stuck out from the rest. I really really really dig this track though! Oldie but a goodie.
“Now you know Im the realest chick you’ve been waiting a while,
and I aint dealin with no Harvard boy cause he makes me smile,
cuz you gotta step your game up,this is what i call a wake cuz,
you can take it to the left because i’ll always be the style”
Love that does not
has no ulterior motives at the back of one’s mind when practicing that love
there are many things that you might be doing as well
that only you are conscious of
in this case, we are in the same boat
im not judging you
im judging myself
and then I give it to you
“My groove theory is that when you too cheery
They try to bring you down to the level they at
Well when they are all unhappy, then it gets a little sticky”
“They say you never judge a book by it’s cover
Though you appear as materialistic, just like the others
So I followed your words to take ‘em in
And I don’t see what you saying so they coming off paper thin
That’s when I felt that I would need to
Do more than just look you up and down to see if I could read you
And try to get inside your head only
Not just stick my fingers in your middle to get you to spread for me
So what I learned on my path to discover?
Your story took one ugly turn after another
I saw we wasn’t on the same page
I would’ve gave you strong play but your words rubbed me the wrong way
So now I’m closing the case
You only out for the paperback that’s written all over your face
No El’ will never judge a book by it’s cover
Until he seen what was in between and looked at what lies are under”
Wouldn’t you rather Think Good Thoughts about someone and be wrong, than think bad thoughts and be right? What purpose does proving yourself right serve, if you don’t got your head screwed on right anyway? Get over yourself. You obviously never knew me at all, and I see now that you never added anything to my life anyway. Good thing you got ppl in your life who accept you just as you are.. hope you appreciate it.
That feeling you get when you meet someone that makes you forget everything and everyone, including your own damn name and maybe even him/her, oblivious only to the magic feeling that makes you wanna goto heaven and hell simultaneously. In other words, butterflies.
Butterflies only exist as insects mang.
Im starting to think that we bring the zsa zsa zsu on to ourselves… it’s all in our head. Im not saying this in a cynical kinda way at all cuz hell, I still believe in Love.. and I still do think someone who you are hella attracted to can bring some sort of crazy feeling… it just shouldn’t be the spotlight of your actions with this person (ie. dang, I feel the zsa zsa zsu with George Clooney, must mean we’re meant to be)…. cuz as nice as it feels to get lost in it, the zsa zsa zsu can make you do some pretty stupid shit sometimes…sorta like gettin a brazillian done in another city (another satc reference).
“Life’s creative solutions require alonetime. Solitude is required for the unconscious to process and unravel problems. Others inspire us, information feeds us, practice improves our performance, but we need quiet time to figure things out, to emerge with new discoveries, to unearth original answers.”
- Dr. Ester Buchholz
It’s been eons since I’ve updated my make up collection.. last night Geenz and I went on a bit of a spree. Did you know MAC is discontinuing Strada?! All fellow lovers will know and understand the extent of this effect. Of course we went to go stock up, and ended up getting more than we intended… Oh yeah, we made a pit stop at Sephora too. That’s girls for you right? :#
L to R: “Grape is the Word” nailpolish (word), “Fall for Love” nailpolish, tarte femme fatale eye palette, Strada (is 2 enough?), Le 2 de Guerlain Mascara, #116 blush brush (it’s all about the contourin nawhatimsayin) (sorry for the shitty quality.. gotta love camera phones)
I am in love with this gold-studded beauty.. The shades are GORGEOUS and for once I would actually wear each and every single color in this palette. It’s refillable too! (AND recyclable!) Props to the one and only BFF for this “bday gift” xoxo
“Ignorance to cope man
Ignorance is bliss
Ignorance is love, and I need that shit”
- kid cudi
I love Cudi. Im super impressed with what he’s trying to put out into the world with his album, and so thankful we get the chance to see him grow in our generation. I love that Cudi is putting it out there that although life may seem a lot easier and trouble-free through fuzzy goggles, ignorance isn’t one of the ways to truly fix any sort of issue. There were many times in my life where I looked back and was like “dayyum, I can’t believe I did that/thought that/didn’t see that” etc. etc.. and pretty much got angry at myself for being ignorant. But we learn through our shortcomings and just knowing that we don’t want to be a certain way makes all the difference in the world. It allows us to align our thoughts, actions and feelings and that’s when we are able pull through.
For once in my life, I feel like the train tracks are still moving forward despite some forks that have been thrown in.. No matter how bad it can be, everything is always perfect the way it is, and it is the way it is supposed to be. Trusting yourself truly opens all doors.
“Oh, They want me to fall (fall)
Fall from the top (top)
They want me to drop (drop)
They want me to stop (stop)
They want me to go (go)
I’m already gone (already)
The shit that I’m on (hey)
I’m already home”
Too many people sippin on haterade, why can’t we all just get along?
Im not talkin about personalities clashin, but just less selfish thinking. It’s way too easy to feed into your own bruised ego and think “What about me? What about what IM feeling?”.. and feel justified in thinking this way. It’s also really easy to have the “fuck all y’all” mentality, but in reality you are only dissociating yourself from everyone else. And while that may seem like a positive thing in many peoples eyes, you are only hurting yourself by doing so. Yes, always look out for #1, but keep in mind that everybody is connected via the universe. We are all goin through some shit or another. Hell, in a way we’re all going through the same thing. It’s not all about you, it’s not all about me. Life is beyond you and I. As soon as you direct your attention on someone else and try to empathize with what they are going through, how they think, really see why they said what they said; that selfish way of thinking just disappears. Makes shit easier to let go, understand, and even forgive.
My BFF pointed out that I haven’t been my usual positive self lately.. and she’s right. I seem to be lacking motivation and any kind of energy that Im used to projecting out into the world.. Usually when I feel like this, I’ll read a quote or blog entry or article or wtvR to inject myself with some good ol’ positivity.. or else I’ll try and focus on all the good things in my life but it doesn’t seem to be working. I can’t even make it halfway down the article without my mind starting to wander..! Or I’ll start listing what’s rad in my life (Jay-Z concert Row 12.. San Fran with Geenz on the 17th.. work is great.. friends are fantastic…….) and I get tired.. so tired that I just wanna lay down and nap. What is going on, and how can I retrieve it back? Help please!
My homie Cindy is returning back to her mother land for a few weeks, so we decided to see her off with some good ol’ straight up chillin. First stop was HAVEN to see the new toys and threads. After went to go visit my old work Rayacom and stole some unused printed goods to decorate my bedroom with haha.