Hank: “There isn’t a woman that I’ve met that I haven’t fallen in love with for 10 minutes or 10 years
What about the one woman that threw it in with me?
Took that massive leap of faith ? Just to be with me?
What do I do? I fucked that up!”
Runkle: “You gave it your shot man!”
Hank: “Did i? Did I do my absolute best or did I just want something I don’t have?
Is the chase better than a.. catch-What other.. some such cliched masculine.. bullshit”
You seriously need to go visit that blog. This guy is seriously on to something! The “world of blogs” needs more of this, and less of.. that. Lately I have been feeling like my life has been so fabricated. I now realize it’s due to what I have been surrounding myself with – whether it be the environment that I have chosen to be in, or the media that I immerse myself in. The longer I am in Toronto, the more I have realized that it is a good thing for me to be out here.. Sometimes a change of scenery is all you need.. to give you that spike of energy & motivation to do better things.. to improve yourself.
Simplify Simplify Simplify
Do Less Do Less Do Less
Back to the basics
Live in the present – less time on emails/technology/etc. – More time with yourself and with other people (who matter)
Tonight Max (Maxwell Roach), an old co-worker from Giovanni’s Music School, was playing (the drums) @ Joe Mama’s with a local band (I think).
I wish I got some pictures, but it was too crowded to get any shots (translation: I was lazy).
It was everything I’ve always imagined in a typical bar in a bigger city… and wished they had in Edmonton. Chillin, places to sit, places to stand, live band playing RnB & Funk..We arrived just in time for the 2nd set and they started out with Nate Dogg’s Regulators as the singer sang “Just Friend’s” by Musiq Soulchild over top.. shit sounded good! Even though it was something I had always wanted to do and was finally doing it, it wasn’t the same without the William and all my friends. Don’t get me twisted, Im glad I have at least Mykie here.. but I miss having all of my friends at once. I know, Im selfish.
So tonight, I totally realized that in Edmonton I drink/smoke myself silly to avoid what is around me.. to make places seem better than they are. So far in Toronto, I have still been drinking.. but definitely not as heavily as in Edmonton. Im not sure if it is a new environment so I have all of my guards up, or if it’s because it is opposite of the Edmonton boredom syndrome… Only time shall tell I suppose!
Still trying to make the most of things.. it’s harder to live in the present as I thought it would be.
p.s. It snowed like 15cm today… go figure it’s +8 in Etown!
Well, I’ve officially been here for a week now. It’s actually exactly as I would have imagined. Not really the city itself, but rather the feelings I am going through. I knew it would be super hard being away from The beloved William and my friends, and I also knew it would be not so easy to find a job. I knew I wouldn’t be partying, I knew I would have a lot of time to myself. In a way, it’s like I was sending myself to boot camp (with way nicer facilities and flexibility) to get away from the mundane and to inject myself with motivation, appreciation, and.. well, life. I can’t really explain how weird it is to know what I need to do to improve myself.. I guess it’s kind of cool actually!