Didn’t cha know, didn’t cha know
Cause you never know where the cards may lay
Time to save the world
Where in the world is all the time
So many things I still don’t know
So many times I’ve changed my mind
Guess I was born to make mistakes
But I ain’t scared to take the weight
So when I stumble off the path
I know my heart will guide me back
“So disappear, vanish if you wish. Just go before you’re swallowed up by bitterness”
- Sunshine, HBMS
It would be silly to wish upon the death of all the things that make us uncomfortable, inflict pain and cause turbulence. It seems to be the only playing field us humans can learn from (and I mean life-changing type of learning). Sometimes we just can’t help but do something that we know is wrong. C’mon we’re all human! We all have skeletons in our closets.
A guilty conscious is a terrible thing to carry. I’ve experienced it and it can eat you alive. That’s how I felt anyways, and I definitely learned my lesson. Not only can it be obvious to others, but it’s one of those things where the more you hide, the more you will end up showing. The more you lie, the bigger the hole you dig. Shit we all learned when we were practically fresh out of the womb. Ingrained in our hearts, minds, and souls, these “shoulds” are practically procedures of life that we are all supposed to know and maintain no matter how hard it is – which is another procedure that we all breathe – life is supposed to be hard.
But does it have to be?
It all depends – as usual – on your perception. The truth may make you look a certain way to certain people, but what’s more important? How you look to others, or being free of self-conflict? We must honor ourselves, not for the sake of others, but for the sake of ourselves. This entails keepin it authentic in whatever we choose to do… even if the act itself has wronged ourselves or has affected others, the most you can do (out of respect) is keepin that policy alive – you know, Honesty. The truth hurts, but at least it’s real. You can still be respected for sayin it for what it is, even if there is a barrier of any sort. Sacrifices may need to be made, but at least you can walk away knowing you were being true to yourself. Isn’t that the way it should be anyways? Why put the power in any other hands but your own? If you are in the frame of mind that you have no choice but to harbour a Titantic of burdens, then perhaps a few shots of self-dignity and self-respect is required (there’s always a choice). Anyways, my point is it’s not always about the act itself, but the way the events unfold, post sticky situation. I just can’t stress on that enough.
How you choose to free yourself is your call. Nobody’s sayin you gotta goto the top of the Empire State and confess to the world (props though if that’s your thing). Even if you don’t get what you want (ie. forgiveness, acceptance, etc.), you can at least live freely and forgive yourself. As soon as the truth is released, the lesson you are supposed to learn comes to light… after all, awareness in it’s truest form can only be revealed if you are in your truest form. Free your heart, mind, and soul.
What can you do today to free yourself? You deserve it, you know – to be happy. Everybody does. Yes, even you.
Gotta password protected this mutha sukka so that I won’t ruin it future LOST watchers. Yeah Im hardcore and caring like that.
Farady: Why did you ask my mother about a woman named Penny? *pause* It happened to you too didn’t it? You felt it.
Desmond: I don’t know what I felt.
Farady: Yes you do. You felt love.
Hi, my name is justeezy and I am a LOST-aholic. I love this show way too much to even put it into words. I can’t even explain it.. and that’s gotta tell you something (I always find a way to explain how Im feeling if you must know). If you are a fellow LOST fan, then you probably know exactly what I mean. Ahh the beauty of shared interests! The last episode, “Happily Ever After” is one of my favorites in LOST history (any one with Desmond is a good one mate!), mainly because of the episode’s fervent theme on Love. On this show, “Love at first sight” is not just about fate. It is also a flash of awareness of a life that you are meant to have. It is, literally, a moment of clarity, in which you see beyond the confines of time and space. I know, corny right? But it works for me–not only emotionally, but because it easily fits in with the rest of the Lost puzzle. Anyways. I wish I was Desmond and could subconsciously move through “time”!
Props to Krispi, because when she stopped (whatever she was doing), looked me directly in the eyes and said very matter-of-factly, “dude, you would totally love this book”, it finally sparked something in me to pick it up and read it (even though this was at her house, her copy). I been hearing about this book a lot, mainly from strangers and acquaintances… But between you and I, I will only pick up this so called “AWESOME BOOK!!!!” if a good friend tells me to. Like Krispi. Cuz they know me and what Im like. Im only on page 60ish, but… Wow, I am hooked. I am her. and… She is her too. (Krispi is like my little spiritual buddy if you didn’t know.) I love it when this kind of synchronicity brings you to a piece of knowledge that you just know that you are meant to come across.
I know Im a little behind on posting this, but I figure there is a higher chance of people remembering if I do a post closer to the date (can you tell I know a lot of procrastinators… and could quite possibly be one myself?). Only 2 weeks left and I am so so stoked for this show. Personally, the thought of these cats coming to good ol’ Etown never even crossed my mind.. always thought I’d have to see ‘em somewhere else (Rock the Bells anyone?). That just tells you one thing, just keep believing! bahahah. I have a feeling this is one of those things where everybody gets their tkts last minute or on the day of.. that’s cool and all.. but the slightest chance of missing out?! I’d get on that shit pronto. Just sayin. Hmm. I should probably get my tickets soon. haha.
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In the words of my friend Tim, SPREAD THE WOOOORD LIKE BUTTER!!